Greetings to everyone who reads this, I am so happy to be able to share with you. Although, life is not always easy I do have a joy in my heart that does not go away. Oh, yes the devil tries to slip in and give me reasons to not be joyful. Like when the kids are giving me a hard time or my unsaved husband reacts to things in carnality. Don't get me wrong he is good to me and our children but he is not a christian so he does not have Jesus in his life to go to for help. I ask that you pray for his salvation I know God is dealing with him because he has become more resistant to hearing about God or even going to church. He is my precious husband and I hate to see him so miserable, if he only knew how wonderful it is to have that heavy burden lifted off your back. I remember carrying that load, I always wondered why I was so tired, just really weary and then after Jesus lifted my burden I was so light and free that I felt like I had more energy and I really do. I remember telling someone, "I am not tired anymore". Do I still have a burden to carry, sure but its for lost souls and for those who I see slipping away from the true holiness way of living. In my journey back to God that is one of the many things I have learned, that God expects us to be seperate from the world. His people are a peculiar people, we have to die out to our self and stop worrying what others think of us and just be obedient. I love the Lord and want to follow him and as the Bible says in Romans 12:1 &2 ¶I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, [which is] your reasonable service.And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what [is] that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.